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shuh cunk
shuhhh…
cunK
shhhhhhhhhhh kkkkkkkkk

shhhhh cunk

i am after the joyous symphony
i am after steve albini’s roars and wails
i am after billie holiday’s ghost
i am after the Valkyrie’s flight
i am after Coltrane’s blue train

i am the last line, three inches before the hole in the dark

i am the record’s whirl and pop
i am on repeat
i won’t ever stop.

I do the same thing over again-
until i am lifted by your tired hand.

faster than falling into love

there is a furious pulse
my hands are shaking
my heart is going to explode.
the center of my chest is getting tighter and tighter
i think
i am
crazy.

i don’t want to do this no more
i don’t want to do this no more
i don’t want to do this no more
i don’t want to do this no more
i don’t want to do this no more
i don’t want to do this no more

blind date

i am going to settle
for someone nicer than i am
i am going to stop going for the gold.
i’ll just drink enough so the colors are all blurred.
i am going to smoke so much
that you’ll just be a hazy outline
of any boy i want you to be.

but mostly,
i am going to forget

that this
is not
what i want.

boy from barrington

tonight
i think i’ll get drunk on the vodka i stole with you,
and try not to think too much,
and try not to be sad anymore.

“diddya know that them roombas are gover’men’ spies?”

“the government puts them chemtrails in the sky”
you say to me in a mock southern accent
” ‘parently there’s summit in ‘em that controls yer mind.”

we laugh at the clouds criss-crossing over our heads
saying that “x” marks the spot,
and that’s where the aliens pick up their
subjects to be probed.

as we walk closer to the chem-crux
i wish that i could control your mind
so we could stand here laughing forever.

summer’s day

sweet juice from a too ripe honeydew
drips down our cheeks
onto our chests
down our shirts
so bright colored fuzz sticks to our skin.

grass sneaks up my skirt and through the holes in your jeans
and the little bugs crawl up our legs
crawling behind our knees
sucking up sweet juice
to get slapped and leave little bright stains.

thunderstriken winds pull our hair around
leading us towards the filling puddles and asphalt brooks-
that will wash away blood, fuzz, juice-
and when the valleys become lakes
i suppose we’ll part ways.

bar-um-pum-pum-pum

i am tired of twisted sheets and flattened pillows,
we could be that legendary last stand.
i am tired of the bed being cold,
a one night battle of tongues,
i am tired of waking up to silence.
and sweat pouring like blood from wounds.
i want your body next to mine,
we would be our little drummer boy,
i want your fingers tracing my veins,
and the cry of cannons,
i want your body to keep time with mine.
and the navy, sailing the choppy waves.

summer

grass weaving with toes
feet soles stained black.

sun ripened skin
salt glistening cheeks.

red juice stained lips
sulfur scented hair.

major chords, simple drums
love words, radio static.

wind streams-
windows whistling.

chest laden with ice water drips
plum kiss bruises.

I’m dying.

Let’s talk about everything
that is going wrong.

just let me
wipe the blood
from my mouth
and try to stop coughing and shaking.

Oh please, yes
just look past the open sores
here and there

and pardon me while i
go vomit blood
for the third time today.

You’ll have to forgive me,
i would hold up my head to talk to you
but see, my muscles are so sore
that if I lift it, I might faint from the pain.

I’m sorry I can’t open my eyes
while I am talking to you-
these migranes make everything but complete darkness
sheer agony.

I beg your pardon, but I must sit down.
I think i’m going to
fain-

Japanese Beetle

Japanese beetle-
see where you rest.
little legs running
between my head and my chest

yeah, skimpring across these planes
over small round hills, and dewey lanes
searching for a way to my heart

Japanese beetle-
your heart doesn’t dare
so when told of the true
you can’t tell that you care

tiny pincers to the skin underneath
but little beetle, i don’t mind if it’s you on me

Japanese beetle,
close to his mind
little bugs
sing everything alive
the summer’s coming closer
and the fruits are getting ripe
Japanese beetle, land on me tonight

Japanese Beetle-
crawling under my skin
you broke into my heart
though I would have let you in

yeah the summer times hissing
words to where you sleep
in the ear of a boy
who I shouldn’t try to see

Japanese beetle,
close to his mind
Japanese Beetle
sing everything alive
the summer’s coming closer
and the fruits are getting ripe
Japanese beetle, land on me tonight